For anyone who’s ever felt fear in the face of change
Farewell is the hardest word to say
It cuts through my heart like a razorblade, it leaves my lips only with resistance that leaves me
Fare-thee-well, it is not such a sad phrase, wishing for goodness and good luck for those that we have loved
Those we HAVE loved
When your heart is open, it is vulnerable, you feel naked
But how else can I live? How else can I exist but with my arms spread wide ready to welcome all these beautiful things in this world?
My beautiful memories, I hold onto you so desperately, I want you to stay
I want you to say, but you’re gone
You’re already gone
You’re a moment that has passed out of reality, the reality is now so different, the reality has changed.
Farewell my childhood, the years of innocence spread out like the warmth of daylight
Farewell years of trial that make me shrink and feel small
Farewell to the years that made me who I am. To the people that made me who I am
I will never see you again, I must forget your faces
I don’t recognize you anymore, I see twisted shapes and people that stare at me expectantly
What do they expect? What can I give them? I cannot give them anything anymore.
But when I go back, your faces are no longer disfigured. They are true and beautiful and they remind me of who I am
Farewell, my darlings. Farewell to safety, to limits, to cages masquerading as doors wide open
I say farewell, but as I do you’re closer than you’ve ever been before. You’re more real than you ever were. You’re more beautiful for me having said farewell.
When I say farewell, you become real because you are no longer my limit. You are my strength.